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/relink!

2008-11-25T17:53:00.002+08:00

hello to the .. 5 people who read my blog? haha
relink: http://www.break-youdown.blogspot.com
those who arent linked there and want to be linked just tag there or here cos the tagboard's the same yeah. cheers

2008-11-24T16:25:00.003+08:00

erm hello. holiday has been boring. wont update much. malaysia was fun even though it was less than 24 hours. i might be changing blog soon yea. sooo bored. everyones away. i miss nicola yok and julin. mariel too. i wish we all could hang out more. fuck this holiday.

another 56 days of hell.

/speechnight, lastday2.

2008-11-15T02:00:00.009+08:00

Okay people i'm going to give a detailed post about Speech Night so get ready for a wordy post.

I left home at 4.30 with my formal attire, guess heels and prada pouch with me (first time using it haha), thinking i was going to be late or something, but i reached super early in fact. so stoned around trying to walk in heels for awhile, waiting for nicola and aviel. then when they came followed nicola to change, then report to the hall straight after that. and he looked super HANDSOME in his formal attire :D ahh so we practised the hymn and school anthem, boring -_- then after that report to tutor room. took half-a-class pic and i really hope it doesnt go on facebook, please God please -__- yea then that was when i had one blister on the side of my left foot, couldnt walk properly and all.. then luckily julin had bandages so i took the last 2 :D but i screwed them up cos they kept coming loose zz -_- i remember i had to walk around barefoot cos the heels were making my blisters hurt like shit.

Then we got released for dinner, had one tiny muffin? no appetite. went office to take bandage then nicola was hungry so i followed her to canteen while she took her dinner then we snuck up to mrs tan's homeroom to eat =D after that nicola's mom, sis and cousin came and i met them :D her sis and cousin dam cute la :D and her mom met aviel also hahaha! we then made an excuse to leave canteen so we went office to take bandage for me as my right foot had blister too ): after taking bandage, saw yok, yok's mom, julin and apple at science terrace so joined them for awhile. then we had to go back homeroom and thats when i realised i left my bandage at the science terrace -_-! so i had to live with the pain on my right foot.

After gathering the whole class in tutor room, went to the hall and here comes the time for the formal part where we all sit in the hall and do nothing but clap for people we dont know... i liked the drama, string ensemble and dance though :D the rest was just boring i guess. and during the video of the memories of 2008 i almost cried :( oh well then we got dismissed, at least he said bye to me :) but i shouldnt have tried to be funny and kinda make a fool of myself and just say bye back, oh welll life's a bitch.

2V'08: I joined you guys like 9 months ago, but i think we've come a long way as a new class for Year 2. We're different from the other classes, in every way. That's all i can say. (hey that rhymes) Hahah. I LOVE YOU GUYS :)

i'll miss nicola♥
i'll miss vanilla♥
i'll miss yok
i'll miss mariel
i'll miss all of you :)

Goodbye Acs Int'l 2008 :)

/speechnight/last day!

2008-11-14T15:49:00.004+08:00

speech night starts in about an hour's time, my last tutor time with 2V starts in about an hours time. and it's the last day of school already? seemed like yesterday that i was the random new kid that joined in the middle of term 1. and before we know it we'll be holding up our champagne glasses to welcome the year 2009 ( or at least, it's what our family does. )

Back to the topic of the ending school year... on the first school-day of 2009 i woke up at 8+ and thought, 'shit i was supposed to be in school! why the hell am i still at home?' and found out my mom told my maids not to wake me up for school, as i was supposed to transfer. but to tell you guys truthfully, i asked for the transfer. but i didnt know my mom would actually let me?

oh wellll, it took me some effort to get in here, and i think it's worth it. this school gave me this experience that i doubt i can get in any other school. bitching and rivalry aside, in this cohort of 100+ Year 2 students, we're all so close, regardless whether we actually really know each other. i don't know but this year has changed my life, for sure.

ok, i have half hour to get ready, gotta go now. pics later ( HOPEFULLY)

/party?zz.

2008-11-09T02:03:00.003+08:00

party people was....
A WASTE OF TIME.

good things: I made some friends, he looked fucking hot in his shirt, HIM, HIM, HIM.
bad things: NOTHING TO DO, BORING, THAT **&^%$% GIRL, NO PARTY WITHOUT ALCOHOL?BULLSHIT, FELT LEFTOUT, NOTHING TO DO!!!11

SO IF YOU DONT DANCE, OR DONT WATCH SOCCER, YOU'D HAVE HATED IT.

IF IT WASNT FOR HIS PRESENCE, I WOULD'VE GONE HOME 3O MINS AFTER IS STARTED.

i went home at 11.40, was planning to stay till 1am+.
YES, IT WAS SO BORING TILL I JUST HAD TO GO HOME EARLY.

I can't fucking sleep now, must have been the Coke. Ahhhhh. Back to off-junkfood routine tomorrow. So today night was good and bad i guess. But to me more bad than good. However what can be more good then HIM holding the door for you? Might not be that big to you but its a damn big thing for me haha. Godddd why do you do thisss? WHHYYYYY????

/party people!

2008-11-07T20:15:00.002+08:00

didn't go school today.. as i was lazy. woke up at 11.34am. then on-ed comp and played almost the whole day lol. :X. yea and tmr im going to get my shoes for party people and one for speech night, at orchard! and i wish my dress for party people wasnt so long.. lol. not being spoilt or anything, but mines like few cms above knee..? and some peoples one are DAM above knee, lol. oh wellll. if i see a hotter dress imma ask my mom to buy it :X . err yea im boredddd. more updates on sunday aft party people or something.. :D

/results

2008-11-04T18:32:00.002+08:00

got back results today, musnt say i'm very happy. everything was how it's expected to be, except for science. i got a 46/100? and it's all because of physics. whats more..? i'm taking physics ONLY next year. oh yay. and i failed RS(16/100) and chinese(34/100) too but it was expected, so whatever. the only thing i'm happy with is english and history. for english i did well in the paper but my term grades pulled me down and i missed Grade 5 by 0.09 marks. fuck it. history paper was 55/70 better than expected, and my overall should be 70/100. quite happy i guess. but science dissapointed me. at least i'm going on to Year 3 (i think) right? but i can kiss my PSP i was about to ask for goodbye :( and for maths i just have to thank the passing mark of 42 or i would have just failed it too. so no retests for me, yay? but results not decent enough, i'm like a average/below average student?

and somethings i have been proud of: i worked out today and yesterday!! haha! go helena :D and i still have to put in more effort to avoid junk food! nuggets and oheya is not enough. i must eat healthy not snack :)

oh well bye :)

/yay!

2008-10-31T00:13:00.008+08:00

this post was written yesterday, published TODAY.

whoo yeaaa. today's math paper... Section one was okay, section 2 - screwed up completely. oh well, useless to talk about the past, i just pray hard i pass. PASS PLEASE. oh okay so after teacher collected the papers, and we left class, i remeber kevin did something hilarious like jump over the railing and landed on the carpark floor, all out of excitement cause exams are over. i have such a crazy class but i love it. haha. :)
so after paper i went to Cineleisure. met wangshi there :) bought tickets for Max Payne, (regretted it later on) and went to have KFC for lunch. seriously acs people are funny. orchard is somehow their 2nd home or something. haha. during lunch wangshi and i caught up on stuff that's been going on, yea and things have really changed! lol! and when we walked out of acs guess who i saw going into the lift!! wtf hahaha so unexpected. so of course i dragged wangshi with me upstairs and we found THEM at the 9th floor. that really made my day haha. except i couldve been more friendly right, wangshi? haha. so we went back downstairs to get popcorn and went to catch max payne.
max payne was such a violent movie i covered my face half the time i swear. i even felt like leaving the theatre at one point of time. i rate max payne like 6/10. WE SHOULDVE WATCHED HSM 3!! EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT EVEN WATCH NUMBER 2!! ):

DAMN IT .

dayummm, after that went wisma to wait for joanna :) . after the collected her camera, we walked around for while, then julin and yok were coming to wisma so i left wangshi and joanna to find them :P . we visited shops, and they made me try on the highest hair of heels they could find in one shop and i was like 180? wtf?? hahhaha. then at 4+ i went home :)

/quiz. and math.

2008-10-29T19:47:00.004+08:00

01. What have you been doing recently?
studying, watching gossip girl..?

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
when it hangs.

03. What happened at 10.00am?
science paper.

04. When did you last cry?
i dont remember, lol.

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
i guess so.

06. What do you want in your life right now?
to pass my exams while i slacked, and a life.

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
put up my hood. if i have one, that is..

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
my pillow..? hahahha

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
some bottom. lol.

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
nicest? i dont know.

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
depends.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
nope.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
can't remember.

14. What are you proud of?
dont know .

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
'sian im bored i pon school today.' From cherie on 14 oct, LOL.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
no idea. i dont really sing out loud..

17.Do you have any nicknames?
dont know.

18. What does your last received text message say?
can i dont answer this.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
1 plus i think.

20. Are you currently happy?
err sort of.

21. Who gives you best advice?
depends on what type.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
no way

23. Who did you talk on the phone last night?
mariel.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
YES . :(

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
cherie.

26. Do you wear toe socks?
what are those?

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
mariel.

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
yes

29. What annoys you most in a person?
calculativeness and people who think they own everything. hate that.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
hmm yeah?

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
nooooo.

32. What is the colour of your room?
boring white.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
yes, i think.

34. Do you believe in the saying of : Talk is cheap?
yea.

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
me?

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
my dad i think.

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
er yea

38. Do you have a life?
nope. wishing for one.

39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't die?
dont think so.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
i dont have a profile song

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
somebody

42. Last time you smiled?
just now

43. Have you changed this year?
i cant judge that can i?

44. What are you listening right now?
vindicated by dashboard confessional .

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
no

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
haha if i walk with my eyes closed it's a miracle im still alive.

47. Is there a quote you live by?
not really.

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
dont ask me that cause i got no idea.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
yaaaaahhh

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
to watch 5 episodes of gossip girl instead of studying chinese.

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
"studying"

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
hell no

53. What song best describe your love life?
whatever sad love song there is.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
nope

55. Who always make you laugh?
cherie.

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
yea.

57. Favourite website(s)?
facebook..?

58. What's your middle name?
not telling

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
going out with wangyyy :D

60. What do you think you are like?
depends on my mood.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
i rather die alone, than drag someone to die with me.

62. Where have you been today?
school.

63. What game do you play often?
alot of games

64. Who are you missing right now?
someone

65. If you have to choose between friends and lover, who will you choose?
depends.

66. What are you doing right now?
this.

67. Which primary school are you from?
nanyang

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
black. white. pink?

69. What emotion you like to show?
depends on my mood.

70. What is your life to you?
being happy.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
solve it.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
cherie

73. Who do you admire most?
no one

74. Which month are you born in?
may .

75. How are you feeling right now?
shit

76. What is the time now?
20.02

77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
as in what kinda tagged?

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
brown, and regretted it terribly.

79. Why are you doing this test?
kill time.

80. What do you do when you're moody?
go play maple. HAHAHA.

81. At which age you wish to get married?
guess what i dont know if i wanna even get married.

82. Who is more important to you? Girlfriends or friends?
arent they the same thing.

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
steal a car, and drive it super fast like in those video games, go around with graffiti and vandalise whatevers in front of me, go skydiving.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
cherie i guess.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after it rains?
yes

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
a new life.

87. What is your goal for this year?
to get a life .

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
whats that

89. What feeling do you love most?
happyness? haha.

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
of course. we're all gona die soon. jks.

91.What feeling do you hate the most?
this feeling, feeling lifeless, worried and agitated?

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
of course.

93. Do you believe in God?
when things are sucky and the dont work out well, nope. if everything is amazing, yes.

94. Who cares for you most?
my dad? okay, maybe me mom too.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
right now, friends. and someone .

96. What will you bring when you fight?
erm...

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
not having a life.

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
theres always the window, jk.

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
cut off his balls or something

100. How do you feel now?
lifeless.

oh how lifeless of me to do that. math tomorrow, learning formulas later. today's science was alright. screwed physics and chem. bio was okay. can't wait for tomorrow. =D god i havent seen wangshi in like one bloody year. finally we can go out. phulwin in november too. haha i miss you guys like fuck. i cant believe after tomorrow, things are going to change, at last.
but it might be a little too late, dont you think?

/chinese

2008-10-28T19:45:00.002+08:00

so we had chinese today, not going to say it was easy. the paper was 2 hours long, with 3 comprehensions, 1 summary, and one fill-in-the-blanks-with-helping-words thing. i screwed up the summary by not understanding the passage, and randomly underlining sentences and copying it down, only to find out i have exceeded the word limit when i counted the amount of words.

and comprehension wasnt much better. i didnt read (properly read) a single passage, just took note of the 'key words' in the question, and went back to the passage to find the answer. yes, that primary school foolproof method. just that its only meant for primary school. and the fill in the blanks thing i tried my best to look at weiyi's answers, only managed to get some but all the best to me.
haha. science tomorrow. done with chem. have bio and physics left. and i have too many distractions like blogging, msn, gossip girl. GOSSIP GIRL!! i watched 9 episodes within 24hours, if it was spent on revision imagine what could've happened. hahah. and cherie's not waiting for me, she's at episode god knows what and im at 9 -___- blair wardolf is cool, the type of friend you wanna have just that she's bitchy sometimes oh well not everyones perfect ;)

yayyayyayyy happy holidays to anyone whos having holidays now ;D

/quiz.

2008-10-27T22:11:00.002+08:00

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by :
-cherie tan zj

1. Do you have secrets?
- yes

2. Would you fall in love with a boy older than you?
- maybe?

3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
-for my friendzz :)

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- save half of it and move to hawaii

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend's stead?
- noooooooo!

6. If you have to choose one person between ur boyfriend & best friend, who will you choose?
- if they are my true friend and lover they wouldnt make me decide :D

7. Hows life now?
- worryinggg bout many stuffs

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- make the person he's attached to's life miserable in any way i can :)

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
-yupp!! everyone i like :D

10. What makes you angry?
- hmm, people to do the lip thing in photos, twits, HYPOCRISM(ahem) and some people .

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- let's keep that a surprise.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- family, CLOSE friends, and the person i like :D

13. What is the most important thing in life?
- happyness.

14. What is more important?Family or Career?
- famillyyy?

15. What is your favourite colour?
- midnight blue?

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- i'll give as much as i CAN i guess.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- none! i'll go jump off a skyscraper for falling for 2 people at once~ :)

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- not really..

19. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
- ALOT of stuff.

20. 5 people I have tagged:
no one in particular, anyone who cares to do this quiz....?

:)

\chinese tomorrow! dieeeeeeeee.

/too early to say goodnight.

2008-10-26T02:04:00.002+08:00

Haven posted since forever,, okay it's only since oct 18 but it seemed like forever.
these few days are passing so slowly. i even forgot todays date, haha.
been feeling rather empty lately. too much private server maple, and too little studying.
i can't believe i didnt finish studying history and had to wake up at 6am on the day of the paper to cram some of yok's history study guide into my brain. and the stuff i expected would come out didnt! wthhhh. waste. they asked us to describe the social class of China, so i just put down the feudal system thing. there was one fact/opinion question too which i didnt know, gahhhh.
And for RS, which i didnt study for, i left 1/3 the paper blank, and anyhow answered most of them. of course some i cheated; from my table to mariels table is one arm length..
and the invigilator didnt take note of the new rule that students arent supposed to go off before the stipulated ending time of the paper, so she let half the class go 45mins aft the paper started, and we made too much noise so some teachers found out and they complained and she got scolded so the rest who didnt wanna go out were stuck in there for 45 more minutes! haha!
yea, chinese, math and science left. wish me luck guyzzz.

hiaaatus

2008-10-18T17:11:00.002+08:00

On Hiatus

till exams are over.

31st October people :D

Might post on some days, don't know.

hahhaha ;D

blaah

2008-10-15T21:47:00.002+08:00

okay, i have learnt my lesson. no more coming to school early. i rather risk being late than stoning like some retart in assembly.. yeah. today was nice, a good day for me. i did some badminton for PE, which wasnt so bad cause i love badminton :) but there's netball next week... IN THE FIELD. dammnnnn. and during lunch break i bought the guy uniform! only top of course. haha. it looks much much nicer than the girls one i swear! but it's kinda obvious and i'm going to have to avoid the vp and some teachers already.. haha. (i dont mind)

and curse my stupid brain cells i should have bought the polo shirt even if i didnt like it.. damn me. damn me. damn me. damn me. damn me. DAMN HELENA. :( :( :(

haha and chem was funny.. yok took out my mascara. and started applying on me. then miss seah was like 'this is not a beauty workshop! and why did you disturb helena by putting mascara on her? you knw shes not very good in chem!' ughh so gay. embarrassingggg.

lalalala. good bye people.

blaah

2008-10-14T20:07:00.005+08:00

woke up late, had one cookie for breakfast, off to school!

had another boring assembly. tutor time, then rs. never seen mr quek so serial before, he shouted very loudly at the boys when they touched the projects, and they also complained that their marks weren't high enough, (which is kinda true if you ask me)

english, i forgot to hand in my summary... -_- copied the whole of looking for dad poem which is one and a half pages long if you count the amount of lines. break was fine, went to miss soh's room to get some work done, then history. kinda borrrrring ):

math, had mock exam, sure fail. some assholes cheated. i fucking hate it when people get good marks but they cheated to get it. i dont feel good inside, don't they? -.- break again, ate alot.

had a damn fun chinese lesson, haha. chinese is slackkkk.

then went home, in a very very good mood. until she smsed me, now i feel so betrayed.

those 2 fucking bitches, can't you just do the whole world a favour and jump off a skyscraper?

we won't miss you, trust us. you're going to get it from me someday, that's for sure.

/ i regret not buying the polo shirt. I DIDNT BUY IT, STUPID ME.

arghhh, PE tomorrow. we're doing volleyball. fuuuuckkkkk PE.

2008-10-13T22:36:00.004+08:00

helllloo. maid kinda scared me into waking up againnn -.- saying that my mom will send me to school so i cant be late blah blah, and ended up gettiing rdy 10 mins earlier, but my mom left without me. whatever. So i reached school at 8.10 damn early, had stomachache during assemblyy, english sucked, art was screwed, presenting next week. fucking screweddd. hope madam ong gets sick or something. and miss soh wants to set targets for me from tomorrow onwards.. which means no more slacking in math class ): here's some conversation with me, yok and miss soh today.
miss soh: helena, when am i going to get fridays work? its 10% of your grades.
yok and me: your next life :P
miss soh: well, you will get your 7 in your next life then.
haha. ohwellls. and music was screwed too that ____ embarrassed me infront of the class, bitchhhh-o dont expect me to do another fcking project with you ever again annoying crapassss.
yea so today they released the polo shirts, i dont really like it but i still might buy one. but someone looks hot in them. haha. polo shirts arent really my thingggg. i shall go complete my stupid homeworks nowww.

2008-10-12T18:34:00.003+08:00

hiiii. today was boringggg, have so much work left.

screw art. screw art. screw art. screw art.

save me from this stupid projectttt.

i only have the write up left, but the only thing is the freaking presentation!!!FUCK PRESENTATIONS!!!!!!111

BLOODY HELLLL.

curse o.t.c . . .

hope she doesnt take any pics, i think i shall request for no pics.

ZZZZZ.

what i want now is a Fillet-o-fish to cheer me up ): i'm so hungryyy. and my freaking parents are in a bad mood cause they scolded my sisters for not getting rdy by 5 cause they were supposed to bring them out.. lol. let's see how many projects i have due next week..

RS Project, Art fucking shit project, and son of a whore music, which reminds me omg we're not even done for music. we havent started on rs, for art we just have to finish the write up and logo.

GOD DAMN IT.

and the music and art is due tmr, rs is due on tuesday.. i can just go jump into a river now.

since when was fucking art such a bloody important subject ,, fucking hell thank god i'm not taking it next year. music too.

must be cause of this freaking school that my working attitude changed so much,argh.

I HATE ART!

I HATE ART!!

I HATE ART!!!

I HATE ART!!!!

I HATE ART!!!!!

I HATE ART!!!!!!

I HATE ART!!!!!!!

I HATE ART!!!!!!!!

I HATE ART!!!!!!!!!

I HATE ART!!!!!!!!!!

FUCKIN HELL.

2008-10-07T23:36:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow i shall force myself to do P.E no matter what. Even if the guys are in the field or not. I've spent too much time thinking about stuff that'll affect me for no reasons, and that is my P.E grades. Even though P.E isn't that important, i shouldn't use that as an excuse to fail.

Yeah so today we played Angels and Mortals during english, i really want a re-do in this shit. 2V sucks at keeping secrets. And i already know who my angel is, so it's kinda pointless now. I bet everyone in class knows who their angel is already. And another reason i want a re-do is to prevent my mortal from being disappointed, cause she didnt get any letters. I've got nothing GOOD to write about this mortal, so she better not expect anything much. Bitch-o

We can continue this for as long as you want, but it'll get old after a while, right? So every time and every day this goes on and on, my patience will wear out, and there'll be nothing left already.

i want a privat range!

2008-10-04T17:34:00.003+08:00

haha, i wish my dad owned a private range ,,
the ones here are too crowded .
or i wish we live really near one . .

ahhh im bored .
nothing to do at home . . .
xcept homework but mariels coming tomorrow to do with me .
none of my friends are online nw ,, so im xtra bored ! !

another 19 days to exam ! i have to study alrdy T-T
cause im afraid i might have to repeat year2 ,,no way !
yeap ,another 4 more days to my sisters' birthday !
thinking of what to get them . . .

and yesterday i dreamt that my sisters got 213 and 219 for psle .
hope it doesnt come true , they have to get higher than that ! haha .
should i let them come to my school ? will be very awkward again , hehe .

unproductive week.. again.

2008-10-04T12:02:00.004+08:00

can you help me? as i'm startin' to burn (all alone)

too many doses and i'm starting to get an attraction

its saturday again..

and i've just had another unproductive week, yay?

i want dad to come back, to settle everything ,, hopefully .

i feel i need a new life, i've been so screwed up for this one and a half months . .

someone killll me !!

i knowww, let's talk about N!

N is DAMN attractive in every way !

we all lovveeeeee him right ?

i think i am going N-uts again,, sorry if i am!

gladys i love that n-uts name you gave me :D

i'm feeling very weird now,, i don know why

i wanna go shopping!

.

2008-10-01T23:52:00.002+08:00

lazed around today, i'm such a loser.

yea i'm a loser.

you laze around more and you'll live to regret it, dumbass.

zzz. sucker.

i'm in such a edgy mood again.

oh well, happy hari raya to anyone who reads this.

even though it's almost over.

dumbass

loser

sucker

wank

i want to wake uppp, will someone do me a big big favour and grab me by my shoulders and shake me as hard as you can? i need it.

rightttt, i feel the need to shop.

someone bring me shopping?

i havent been shopping for over a month.

but i'm broke and stuck at home.

mommm, faster come backkkk.

ahhh i'll have to wait 'till after 8 october.

okay, my grandma just came in and i got told off for not switching the toilet lights off.

come on, even my 4 year old brother remembers.

sometimes i feel like, my IQ is 25.

damn what the fuck is wrong with me.

i wanna die earlyyyy

don't think im having suicidal thoughts.

i just feel it's better to die young when you feel like that all the time.

oh wellll. i shall go sleep now and look forward to another stupid day.

or better, dont wake up at all.

.

2008-09-25T17:57:00.002+08:00

yay i aced the hist test ;)

28/28 :D

this week has been good actually. not many bad things happened.

but it ends tomorrow ): cuz it's friday ): ):

friday why must you come so fastttt, damn you.

well today was fun, i arrived super early. hmm. played during chinese, laughed too loud a few times, meichen and i almost made spitballs but we made too much noise so teacher scolded me.. haha but it was all in the name of fun :) hmm had a nice history class, slacked during math.. learned the stuff during bio, some people asked stupid questions, which was what annoyed me most. and during lunch break i sat at the science terrace and me and julin were 'decorating' the tables with meichen's penknife.. you get what i mean. so now im chatting with cherie on msn, being very lifeless as usual.

friday dont come pleaseeee ):

.

2008-09-24T22:57:00.005+08:00

baby we're almost there :)

i am currently attempting to multi-task by learning my history key words and blogging. i am going to ace this test tomorrow so whoever out there who doubts that can eat my dust tomorrow :) ooh ooh my favourite breaking benjamin song is playing on my itunes now ;)

and i just got this mail from friendster... like 30 seconds ago. it said " Friendster Reminder - peanuts's Birthday is Today - September 23 " way to go Friendster. HAHA.

Fs is like the most stupid ass shit hole thing on earth. lags like hell and its really braincell-less most of the time. and i'm thinking of deleting this blog or just making it private.. no one reads it and i feel like im doing all this for the fun of it.. which is kinda true. and i have 3 taggers, Cherie, Gladys and Phu Lwin. where have the others gone? ):

anywayyyy, today was a good day. mr teh/tay didnt scold me for pretending to be sick for PE, which is kinda obvious cause it's the 4th week i'm skipping PE. hahaha. yes and screw the bio test i'm going to failll. tomorrow is thursday, but i cant go to CLB, i feel extra there ): curse the mandarin chinese class, why cant they send them back to chinese b? ): ): ): then i will have friends to go to if i escape there :/ shit shit shit. hate higher chinese. hate higher chinese. maybe i will buy 3 hash browns and 1 coke before i go in and i'll play the paper game thing with maxine and meichen again :D :D :D okay my parents are leaving for london in an hour's time, and they'll be going to italy immediately after that so i wont see them for 2 weeks how sad.

okay i have to go be a good student now and go and slp early :P

.

2008-09-23T17:36:00.006+08:00

i need to know what you were saying to me >:(

why didnt i put my persistance to good use that moment.

ohhhhh wellll.

i might be going to Chinese B on thursday.

that is if i have friends to go with me cuz mariel wont be there ):

all foreigners have to go to stupid Mandarin Chinese ):

that means no excuses to go there. shit! JUST WHEN WU LAO SHI LET ME GO.

AHHHH. ): ): ):

anw, my half an hr in chinese B today was nice (:

wu lao shi didnt scold me for being 45 minutes late for chinese!

(needed 15 minutes go muster up courage to go into class, and also to try and see if CLB tcher would let me back in cause she chased me out ): )

~~so i might be in school tomorrow, might not.~~

~~hopefully not cause i want to skip soccer assesment >:(~~

~~and i get to miss bio test!~~ I AM GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW -.-

hahaha, i had fun today :D

.

2008-09-22T22:43:00.003+08:00

Stuck on you 'till the end of time

I'm too tired to fight your rhyme

Stuck on you 'till the end of time

You got me trapped inside

that's 20 cool points for insulting someone you dont know well on facebook

haha, blog tomorrow. but in case i dont,

here's an early birthday wish.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMBERLY AND PHULWIN!

2008-09-18T16:57:00.003+08:00

I

AM

SO

TIREDDDDDDDDD

i heard school ends at 4.30 on alternate days next year.
is it freaking true? wtffff. i'll be dead when i reach home.
shittttt.
these few days have been crappy.
which means i'll be on hiatus
BYE BYE.

i'm not too fond of asking.

2008-09-16T17:00:00.002+08:00

so let me say that i love you

you're all that i ever wanted

all that i've ever dreamed of to come.

and yes, you did come

i want you so bad, can you feel it too?

you know i'm so, i'm so in love with you.

He didnt come to school today. oh wellllz.

ahhh soccer tomorrowww. sucks to soccer.

i want an mc for tmr!

tongue tied.

2008-09-15T16:12:00.002+08:00

i need a little more luck than a little bit

'cause every time i get stuck, the words won't fit

and every time that i try to get tougue tied

i need a little good love to get me by.

♥

today was niceeee.

happy mood the whole time. especially for music.

free period :) got chased around the whole school haha.

hm i dont feel like posting today. or now.

I WANT MY NEW BAG.

BUT MY MOM'S HOME SO I CANT.

ARGHHHH

i wanna go swimming ):

2008-09-14T13:26:00.009+08:00

dont say we're not meant to be.

i can hear the neighbours swimming in their OWN backyard pool now.

Makes me feel like joining them.

i havent swam since... June?

I WANNA GO SWIMMING ):

i used to swim once a week, without fail, after track when i was Primary 6.

and i had the stamina and all.

now it's all lost cause i quitted swimming class.

and i wish i had a backyard pool like my neihgbours.

swimming at night is the best thing ever.

i would like to try that one day.

but i can't do all that today cause i have freaking tuition.

shit tuition.

my mom wont get me a phone too. wont they goddamn understand that it wasnt my fault that fucking sony ericsson doesnt know how the manufacture phones PROPERLY?

shit this shit that. i get so angry whenever the subject of my phone is brought up.

parents going to London on 25th.

YESYES LIP SMACKERS :D

i wish today will quickly pass and monday will be here.. :D

shites, i think you're becoming the reason i go to school.

but it doesnt matter.

i think yesterday i did the best piece of tuition homework ever.

Statistics could be my thing. and i never wrote so neatly too. o.o

haha. oh welllll. 38 more days to exams.

better pull up my socks and start revising before it's too late.

okay, lunch is here. bye :)

------------------

10.13PM.

WHY IS IT SO HARD TO GET WHAT I WANT?

I'M NOT ASKING MUCH, SERIOUSLY.

WHY ARE MY PARENTS SO NOT UNDERSTANDING?

thanks to sista for the $50 loan.

i'm going to use it to get the Billabong bag i want.

Parents, it's too bad i've to get it myself cause i dont give a shit about you guys.

scold me all you want, you should have thought about how i'll feel sometimes first.
and i really dont know how fucked up is my dad.

i'm only asking for a new phone. and it doesnt have to be anything big.

i would be damn happy with a w910i already.

won't you understand that my old phone spoiled? and i didnt freaking spoil it.

to those people out there who get an iPhone or change their phone every year you better thank your lucky stars. all these must be influence from acs int'l for sure.

i dont know what idiot parents some kids there have, really.

don't they know in a few years time there'll be a food shortage?

prices are increasing so badly and only some people will manage to understand what we're going to face in the future. not want to get ready for it? prepare to fight for food when the time comes.

wtf is wrong with this world?

2008-09-13T11:58:00.003+08:00

i count the days 'till you're mine.

i am deadd.

my tutor msged my mom to complain about me.

but nothing can ruin my HAPPY HAPPY mood :D :D :D

STUFF TO DO.

#BUY GRAPH PAPER!!!

#Finish up history

#finish up art

#go to the gym more often

#go out more often (when was the last time i had a nice trip to orchard?)

#wait for next friday (or thursday)

#tell mom i need a private tutor

#start rmbing stuff taught in tuition (if possible)

#be happy :)

#talk to you more in school.

---

Yup.

:D :D :D

2008-09-12T21:10:00.003+08:00

I'M A HAPPY HAPPY GIRL (:

today was one of the best school days i had.

everything kinda went the way i wanted to

Mariel came over today, we got super stressed out by the History project.

we kept cursing everthing, haha.

but we managed to get the info done.

left with the sources which i'm going to send her later. (:

these days havent been really sad. i'm happier.

the best thing this week happened this morning

.

2008-09-10T19:49:00.003+08:00

hmm, i feel much better now.

thanks to cherie, mariel and gladys.

i really dont know how i'd survive without your advices.

like seriously, i really dont know.

i'm going to be patient, and POSITIVE.

and i won't jump into conclusions.

i'll let time tell everthing.

if it happens, be happy.

if it doesnt, it's God's decision and it will always be a blessing disguise.

from everything that's happened to me, i'll know it's a blessing in disguise.

from the raffles thing, coming to acs was a new start.

and i just have to keep faith as the number 1 thing in whatever i do.

that's what i always tell myself whenever i think of stuff.

i dont know why i dont do what my mind tells me, it's about time i start to.

and i really should start looking around and thanking God for whatever i have.

friends, family, school, and just how lucky i am to know all these people.

yup so today was a good day in school.

doing soccer for PE, i'll take note to fake sick and be absent on wednesdays.

Warheads.

2008-09-09T17:53:00.004+08:00

You make the sun come up on a cloudy day.

today was a total shit day.
nothing went my way yea.
the only funny thing that happened today
was during lunch, mariel bought Warheads.

and then we dared Maxine to eat 17 pieces at a go.

and she did. but she spat it out after a while, zzz.

then julin ate 13. also spat out.

i took the remaining 9. but i finished :D

they called me freak cause my face was expressionless when i ate it.

maybe cause it's only 9 pieces? heh.

besides this, whole day was shit.

tomorrow better be good.

-

2008-09-08T18:41:00.003+08:00

I won't talk, I won't breathe

I won't move 'till you finally see

That you belong with me

You might think I don't look

But deep inside the corner of my mind

I'm attached to you.

I'm weak, it's true

'Cause I'm afraid to know the answer

Do you want me too?

'Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line

To the only thing that's true

So I will not hide, it's time to try

Anything to be with you

All my life i've waited

This is true

You don't know what you do

Every time you walk into the room

I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true

I'm just scared to know the ending

Do you see me too?

Do you even know you met me?

What else can I say?

This song tells it all.

2008-09-08T16:13:00.006+08:00

What if I wanted to break

Laugh it all off in your face

It's Term 4 people, doesnt time pass fast?

Term 4 - the term of exams, work and of course, holiday.

before we know it, it's Term 1 '09 all over again.

i had a really weird and disturbing dream last night.

woke up at 5.45 feeling all shocked and stuff, but i calmed down and went back to sleep.

today was okay.. not the most ideal first day of school.

but i was happy to see everyone again, after 1 week.

the best part of today was skipping 15minutes of art with Maxine and going to the third level near-staircase area to have a nice, pour-it-all-out chat with her.

and mrs tan made a big, big mistake today. i can't imagine how i'll react if it happened to me.

and that's when apologizing won't help cause the damage is already done.

one good thing about today, last guitar lesson.

i think i need someone to talk to.

i need someone to tell everything to, cause my problems aren't solved yet.

---

I give myself until the end of this week to get myself back on track.

i'm a patient person, but i'll only be patient for the things worth waiting for.

if you still keep me waiting, i'll just assume you're unsure of yourself and i'll go.

----

tried looking through Google for what my weird dream meant.

i guess it's too weird to be deciphered. hahaha.

i'm really hating this.

edit.

so it's 11.12 pm, and while waiting for my hair to dry, i was looking at my bm friends' blogs.

and i realise how things are different compared from there and acs.

it's just a totally different society, which means different behaviour.

You guys also put up pictures, which makes me think of those sec 1 days,

and where you don't have to worry about making friends :)

there was just this thing that made us all friends, where looks or possessions don't matter.

but in acs no matter what you do, there's always people bitching about you,

even people you don't know.

they don't have this we're-all-friends thing.

But there's also good about Acs.

oh well, don't know what i'm talking about as usual, goodnight.

Sept 8.

2008-09-08T08:02:00.001+08:00

Good luck to me on the first day of school :/

My hair looks weird today, hopefully no one notices my haircut.

But my face looks much better i guess.

okay. i gotta go in 7 minutes.. needa pack my bag now.

bye guys.

fuck

2008-09-06T11:30:00.003+08:00

fuck sony ericsson phone repairers.

now my phone can't be repaired.

they told us the screen was cracked? wtf? and there's no crack on my screen.

fuck you sony ericsson phone repairers.

and now my dad doesn't wanna give me a new phone.

so don't bother calling me as i rather die to use the other shitty phones at home.

and i also wasted this year's birthday present.

a PSP would have been a much better decision.

SHIT.

DONT EVER BUY SE W960i PHONE, PEOPLE.

2008-09-01T18:27:00.007+08:00

Baby, i stay in love with you.

♥

We all know that we can't be perfect, and no one is.

God gives you good traits, but bad traits too.

And the bad traits He gives you, you just have to deal with it by making the best out of it.

Like they say, God is fair to everyone.

I know God is fair to me, but why did He have to give me one of the worst traits ever?

He gave me a decent image, height, and mind which i thank Him very much for.

But why did he have to make me lazy?

EDIT

WTF I PASSED CHINESE? HAHAHHAHA!

AND I ONLY FAILED ART AND MATHS! WOOO.

and my highest was 6 for history.. well miss morris could have given

me 7 for effort no? but i'm happy with 6 for achievement.

but not satisfied if i dont get my 7-7 !!!

i'm going to work on my math, too. Grade: 3-3 ( failed )

i guess i only get 6 for history cause i'm interested in it. haha

Here are my not-so-beautiful grades:

Effort/Achievement

Art: 3 / 3

English: 5/4

Higher Chinese: 4/4 ( dude wtf )

History: 5/6

Math: 3/3

Religious Studies: 4/4

Science: 5/4

soooo, will dad be happy? guess not.

needa work. and im pissed at him he just scolded me for not hearing him

WHEN I HAD MY EARPIECES ON

HOW FUCKTARDED.

2008-08-30T18:26:00.000+08:00

THIS HAS TO BE THE MOST BORING SATURDAY EVER.

holidays?

2008-08-29T12:36:00.006+08:00

currently waiting for princess CHERIE TAN to get rdy.

we're meeting up at nyps. andddd, she's taking forever cause she lives far far away while for me, i can see nyps' clock tower from my room window.

hmmm.

teacher's day celebration today, most of the teachers deserved the awards for Student's Choice Awards i guess.. i'm kinda sad ms. seah didnt get any though );

HURRY CHERIEEEE. :D

okay, going for lunch now!

i'm going to miss you more than you can ever imagine for this one week holiday.

EDIT.

Met cherie at about 1.35/1.40pm?

She looks so different. compared to last year. hohoho.

havent seen her for... almost 14 months. missed the crapping loads.

hmm. met at coro. cause someone is lost. HAHA.

then she wanted to get a drink, walked arnd a lot. and i bought a cutie nigt before christmas keychain <3>

we practically wandered around the Nyps/Coronation/Crown Centre area.

super uber fun to be with her! and it was so funny when we shared poppiah, 2 pieces each.

i finished 2 pieces with finesse. someone cannot use chopsticks properly. HAHA.

okok, she wanted to go to nanyang but they closed at 1230, wtf?

so nowhere to go. soo we were alr dying of boredom at 3.30.

then we decided to go my house. which is 10mins walk away?

so went my hse. watched drama. then we did something meanie.

MEAN. A MEAN MASTERPIECE. HAHA.

she went home at 5 ):

fun fun fun day :D

Yay my lip smackers arrived too!
♥

I LOVE YOU.

2008-08-28T23:25:00.002+08:00

Tell me 'bout it

Tell me how I feel

How you feel

And if the feeling's real

♥

I LOVE YOU

SO, SO MUCH

damn girl.

2008-08-27T15:48:00.002+08:00

Girl it's what you do to me

It's got me saying

Damn girl, you're so fine

The way you let me put it down, girl

Just blows my mind

♥

i'm sooo addicted to Damn Girl ):

Even though it's not from my point of view, and i can't relate to it much,

it's such a sweet song ._.

today was nuts. not a good day at all.

2008-08-26T16:05:00.005+08:00

'Cause if your love was all I had

In this life

Well that would be enough

Until the end of time

♥

today wasnt exactly great..

okay, it COULD be the best day ever, if what you said to me is true.

cried in chinese today. cause of maxine's songs and the thought of what just happened.

i'm failing RS, by 6%.

i need to get away fast, there's too many distractions.

i just wish i could bring you along.

YOK I WILL MISS YOU. COME BACK FAST ):

2008-08-25T16:07:00.006+08:00

it should have been me.

♥

awww, what a day, of good and bad. i'm going to get a demerit because of comic life.

oh well, live with it. i dont feel like posting right now.. today wasn't very good towards the end..

that electric touch of yours.

*CHERIE YOU ROCK.

the one who never fails to cheer me up by making funny and evil stories of people i'm angry with and make me laugh non-stop and help me forget everything that happened.

Why didn't we get to know each other sooner? HAHA.

even though we have disagreements everyday, we'll always have jokes, agreements and funny imaginary stories of people we hate to cover up (:

she's the reason why i fall asleep in a good mood all the time :D

i'm going to sound funny saying this, but READERS PLS TAG ):

Always the same people tagging -.-

future future future :)

2008-08-22T16:38:00.004+08:00

I'm learning to fall

I can hardly breathe

When I'm going down don't worry about me

Don't try this at home

You said you don't see

I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

♥

hey peepo. i was reading my old blogs, and i've realised things changed. and i changed too.

i even typed differently. Last time:

you = yoo.

la = larh/luhhs

G = Q (eg. twitting = twittinqq) [wth? lollers]

haha = haas.

and = & (who the hell did i learn being stupid from, haha)

eeew.. i can't bear to think of others. i SO feel like an idiot.

but there were good times too ): i remember we were so carefree on those days, nothing on our minds but going out after school, talking on the phone, maplinqq (kidding) , and going to school just to see our beloved friends.

And Cherie tan has got the honour to read how stupid i was from July 2006 till now.. and shes nudging me repatedly, copy/pasting what idiotic stuff i wrote and laughing it off. awww, haha.

i know in about 1 year's time, Future Helena will be reading this too. so hey future helena, how's it going? fine i hope .___. really really hope. how will future helena look like? will she have a boyf? (lol) and what will she think when she reads this?

school was fine. argh im so crazy over you. i'm scared of the future ): very scared.

but excited too. i wonder how i will be.

this is to anyone who remembers my old blog urls. interested you can go and read :) and also prepare to laugh your asses off :)

2008-08-21T15:43:00.007+08:00

I am currently the most:
-happy
-delighted
-overjoyed
-ecstatic
person in the world.

---------

I won't bother about you anymore.

If i take revenge, i'm just going to stoop as low as you.

but don't expect me to treat you as if you're one of my friends.

wait, we were never friends. bitch. so what makes you think i'll care so much about what you say? the only one that's going to be at loss is you.

on a happier note, today was great. GREAT.

and sorry yok for spreading the germmms to you.

may we recover fast. HAHAHA.

do you catch a breath when i look at you

are you holding back like the way i do?

2008-08-20T15:56:00.004+08:00

There are days when outside your window,

I see my reflection as I slowly pass

And I long for this mirrored perspective,

when we'll be lovers, lovers at last
♥

http://news.sg.msn.com/sci-tech/article.aspx?cp-documentid=1631680

scary. what if my ipod catches fire? ._.

anyway, i had fun in school today.

i felt bad skipping archery assesment, but i was on MC so i have an excuse ._.

and it's fun to tease mariel, during english abel, fabian and i kept calling her apple.

and searching the dictionary for the defenition of "apple", and readin it out to her.

applesauce, crab apple (whatever that is), apple pie.

And saying apple in chinese and bahasa indonesia.

but after a while it got boring, haha.

oh yes, during english we also played charades with taboo cards.

uber fun. but some of us got kinda sick words like, G-string, briefs, strip, babe and had to act very sexily, or whatever's mentioned. still, it's good fun. i went up to act and i remembered i got mad cow disease but i skipped it. -__-

anw, i hope miss morris doesnt notice i didn't go to detention.

:/ if im caught it might result in a freaking demerit or whatever.

obviously miss morris doesn't know how to give demerits because they stay with you till you graduate, and __ also got one for not bringing textbook, twice ):

History is starting to get boring, really.

all we do is sit there and do what she says as if we're robots.

*reconsiders taking history next year*

okay see you people, helena's rest time :D

2008-08-19T17:19:00.003+08:00

Do you ever think, when you’re all alone,

All that we can be, where this thing can go,

♥♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIN, one of the prettiest girls i know :)

today during break Julin brought out the cake some guy called Thanapon bought her ohh.

haha, i kid. it was a very delicious fruit cake.

i like fruit cake, minus the fruit :P

Anyways, after all of us had some she went to bring a piece to Thanapon in the tennis court, so hell yea i followed ;P

TENNIS COURT! ahh he was there!!

I am going to chinese B next year, if mommy dearest allows );

cant cope in higher and express sucks.

going off to see doctor later, long time since i paid him a visit, heh.

and you said, hey.

2008-08-18T21:47:00.002+08:00

msn:
maybe if you knew i cared says:
BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY
maybe if you knew i cared says:
SOMEONE KILL ME PLEASE.

yes someone kill me, i suck. i'm lousy. a loser at this game.

*FUUUUCK, I HATE BEING SICK. I HATE FLU AND SORETHROAT. I DONT WANA GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW!! IM SNEEZING LIKE A MAD COW. NOOOOOOO

2008-08-18T18:55:00.006+08:00

And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You're ok with the way this is going to be
This is going to be thing we've ever seen
♥
I was late for school today.. so i have to prepare for early bird soon. Couldnt sleep last night, sleeping has just got harder for me (insomnia?) Hmm and, i need someone to give me wake -up calls, maybe that would help much? It's embarrassing to be one of the familiar faces walking into the hall after flag-raising.

And i think lost Danielle's maths textbook today, which means i have to give her mine. dayummm. and today my grandfather forgot to give me money so i had to borrow from Danielle and now i owe her two bucks. And on my way to the range, i forgot to bring rubberbands so my grandpa sent me somewhere and i bought pretty glittery and plain rubberbands!

Ah well Maxine just came online and i just gave her a nudge (; it's fun to have a friend whose crush is in your crush's class too. Oops i just said that. I have history project of the feudal system due tomorrow and i havent started yet. so much for working hard in hist. but i will still strive for a 7 in effort :x and i also have chinese spelling to learn.. which i dont learn. Haha oh well gotta run.

i detest you for who you are, sucker (:

xx

homework sucks.

2008-08-17T18:51:00.003+08:00

Long as I know you got me

I'll be loving you long time.
♥

Rushing on my english essay now. mrs tan wants me to write sophisticatedly eh? i'll show her sophisticated. as for art, give up already. and i have to rush my history "illustration of the feudal system" project.. *whines* who knew year 2 could be alr quite stressful, i'd hate to think of the year 4's stress level. oh yes, and i'm replacing art with history. so i'll have no creative shit in my subject list next year, which is gooood. cause i'm backwards in music and art. oh well i have to get started before my dad comes back.. -_______- life is so depressing when you're piled up to the nose with work, esp when your a student supposing to be enjoying life, and playing golf :x

change

2008-08-16T11:37:00.001+08:00

And why should I be sane without you

Seriously, things have to change from now on.
I must change my working attitude, and get my life organized.
today we had igsce subject option whatever in school.. i didnt pay attention much to the stuff they were talking about.. was only paying attention to mr. dreamy.
and the subjects i will most likely be taking next yr are..
Eng, Lit, E Maths, Physics and Bio, Spanish and Chinese, Geo, Art.
i'm going to be a linguist, hohoho. but i'm going to have to build up some foundation in spanish. i wanna take it as a Second lang and chinese as third d:
hmm, after that went to heeren.. bought one Old Skool! shirt from queen's couture. and the coolest Lacoste shoes, but my mom was the one who bought the most things.. haha. i think she came back with.. 3 pairs of shorts, 1 pair of shoes, 3 shirts? lolll. today was a goooood dayy. just that i have homework piling up.. ):
xx

):

2008-08-15T16:57:00.012+08:00

I fell in love, in love,

With you suddenly.

Now theres no place else,

I could be, but,

Here in your arms.
♥

yo. when i reached schl today i got into so much hassle just because i didnt bring the stupid school tie.. they almost made me buy one for $10 so retarded. the Business Enterprise club is officially my enemy. Mr Png let me off at last.. but i need to have my freaking tie on monday great embarrassment... shits.

erm erm oh ya nobu was soooo cute when he went up to stage and made a short thank you speech to our school.. so many year 2s were cheering for him xD Hmm then during bio i got nobu's email, number, address (lol) .. and at abt 2pm they had to go alr.. alot of us sent them to the office.. and after that when they were going to leave nobu cried on his suitcase!!!

awww . then maxine and i hugged him. after that maxine and i went to mrs tan's class to find yok and mariel and when we were looking at this pic mariel took of nobu's really sweet note to us and we still could make out what he was writing.. and then was when....

that was when ...

i cried. LOL.

hahahha. well i'll miss them soooo much ):

OH YES! MAXINE, I'M SOOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!! AHHHH. YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT :D

and, I LOVE YOU JAPAN <33 <3 <3

:D

2008-08-14T16:52:00.006+08:00

Love of mine some day you will die

But I'll be close behind

I'll follow you into the dark

Today was a gooooooooood day. especially prayer *gasp gasp*
except for history we had our key word test and i was too stooopid to keep staring at 2X's seating chart during the test and when miss morris said the definition of "democracy" i wrote "decentralised government" and that caused me to lose my full marks. 26/28. dumb right? i wanna shoot myself. zzz. ahhh after school to Haagen Daaz with Nobu, Taka, Maxine, Mariel, Lihui, Yok, Nicola, Rachel, Ju Lin, Mei Chen and Katerina yes thats a big group hoho. i had ONE SCOOP cookies and cream and that cost me $10.45 retarded price i know.. money down the drain T.T and i was happy mostly today, especially for before history while walking to class, morning time and when we were going to be dismissed during bio.. hahha not telling why :X

♥♥♥♥♥♥

2008-08-13T15:52:00.004+08:00

If someone said three years from now

You'd be long gone

I'd stand up and punch them out

Cause they're all wrong

yay i cant wait for tomorrow we might be going out with Nobu and Taka their the cutest japanese boys i've ever met :DD i think i forgot to mention they joined us on tuesday for some immersion programme.. only for 3 days ): i want them to stay longer!! their are SOOOO adorable everyone loves them! their our age but they look like my younger bro im serious. Ahhhhh. adobrable adorable. anyway today for PE we did archery i was so close to bullseye i got the yellow part mannnn. the Belgian chocolate mrs tan gave out divine. but i couldnt get a second piece.. but i got 3 pieces of toffee and i finished up all the assortment chocs ._. fat fat fat helena.
in the morning i was pissed with yok but it was over something so stupid. hmphhhhh and someone has been bitching about me ohh.. watch out bitch dont think i dont know =) later i shoot archery arrow fly right into your chest hahaa sadistic i know..

oops gotta go

and oh yes.. good luck to C' Div Rugby boys.. do us proud, haha. and good luck to year 4's and my yummy vanilla for their prelims tmr too.. if any of you are actually reading this, lol.

/Heels Over Head.

2008-08-12T17:30:00.002+08:00

Boys Like Girls - Heels Over Head

I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
Gonna cash it right in for a new Mercedes
If I drive a hundred thousand miles

Would you let me stay a while?
♥

Wow Madam Ong didnt even ASK me for the project, i worried so much for no reason.. and i'm lazy to do now. the foolish never learn do they? i suppose not. anyways, OMGOMG. HAHA. I'M ON GOLF CHANNEL NOW AND A GOLFER JUST SLIPPED INTO THE POND AFTER HITTING A SHOT. HILARIOUS.

Anyway, today mrs. tan gave us chocolate which was nice but i can't wait for the belgian one she's going to give out tmr hohoho. i'm starting to be annoyed by yok she still ignores me when i ask her for help during maths. and she even asked me why i was mad at her during lunch.

Mmmm, craving for Toblerone now. i'm so going to regret this. look at what chocolate does to your figure and complexion ): so what its supposed to be good for you cause it contains cocoa thingies...

2008-08-11T20:38:00.003+08:00

Helena is officially dead (:
She has not started on her Comic Life project which is due tomorrow,
and also has not started on her history write-up which is ALSO due tomorrow.
And she has spent the whole day sitting in front of the computer,
Which makes her a no-lifer.

hello readers.
i have already planned my excuse for NOT doing Art.
I'll just say i forgot my thumbdrive (:
Anddd i have to start soon...
I forgot to ask Maxine for her carebear -__- ...
Which makes things even worse..
ohwell, i'll leave you guys hanging here.

xx

Happy National Day, Singapore.

2008-08-09T16:51:00.003+08:00

I'm going to sound stupid posting this,
but its for whoever that cares.
so to anyone who gives a shyt about Singapore turning 43,
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY (:

oh yes, horror night was kinda awesome. I forgot my jacket but it was kind of Wynton to lend me his Liverpool jacket. I shouldnt have forgotten it cause the temperature was 16degs and i felt bad that Wynton had to hide in his sleeping bag ):
Anyway. we watched a few movies, but i think i enjoyed Gothika most. I slept at about 5.45 to 6am? not sure. how i survived? -Red Bull from wynton. nachos and coke too.

The horror maze was fun too.,even though i screamed alot cuz after that some random guy came up to me and asked me if i was the girl who screamed alot -.-

Sad i have no pictures ): it was too dark and i was lazy anyway :P And i remember during some movies when the scary parts where here, some year 3s behind will shout out " SEX! " and make the whole hall laugh. lol.
andddd, the hall floor was impossible to sleep on. woke up at 7.10am with my whole body aching. Went home at 7.35, and slept more at home until 11. :D

Mariel's Birthday party tomorrow :D <3

72%

2008-08-08T13:26:00.003+08:00

I'm looking at you through the glass,
Don't know how much time has passed.
Oh God it feels like forever.

Welll, i'll be using both xanga and blogger now, depending on my mood.
Haha. Didnt go school, went to play a round at Jurong Country Club.
Shot a new best score :DD Drinks on the house! Haha.
YAY my parents are letting me go for horraaa night! im gona get get packing sooon :D

2008-08-05T21:38:00.002+08:00

RELINK BABES (:
http://www.xanga.com/darksidecrush

:D
:D
:D

2008-08-04T22:59:00.004+08:00

Even though nothing bad happened today, it was still a crap day for me.
well, firstly the sight of someone makes me puke.
i dont know why maxine even let them come to sit with us at lunch today -__-
wtf man... i wanna tell them to F off also canot.. zzz.
And that idiot face keeps making damn lame jokes which arent even funny.
and i kept laughing fake laughter..
and the way you speak is like shit. wtf man, cant understand a fcuk. cant ur accent get more singlish?
im gonna tell maxine everything tmr so she'll get things straight and finally i can live in peace (:
I dont know why but, i'm such a fake/bad friend sometimes. What has gotten into me?
Ohwell, the only thing i can look forward to in my life now is Australia!
And thats in October.. oh well. Another... 2 and a half months of hellishness..

I realised there's alot of "..."s in this post . Haha!
Oh well. i should be going to bed.
Nights.
xx

2008-08-03T21:31:00.003+08:00

I HAD THE BEST DREAM LAST NIGHT I HOPE I DREAM OF THAT DREAM EVERY NIGHT FROM NOW ON :D

Juicy madness

2008-08-02T14:26:00.003+08:00

THIS??

or this?

I swear im going to get this first thing on the my next trip to KL. hohoho ;D

I'm being so materialistic, and i am going to enjoy my Saturdays from now on.
So no more waking up for gym ( ok somtimes :D )
Hope my mom will bring me to Far East Plaza later. ):

-edited.
Ohwell, i didnt go to Far East.
but we went Novena. To get some stuffs from Adidas.
And i bought the coolest most expensive $160 shoes from adidas by Stella McCartney.
yayyyy. but my mom is going to be calculative abt everything now. zzzz.
ah, she'll get over it :D

2008-08-01T21:10:00.002+08:00

today was fine. lol.
and my school is organizing Horror Night on next friday night to saturday morning.
i asked my dad but i'm not sure if he allows the sleep over school thing .
pray pray pray he will let me go. ):
ahhh

Screamo

2008-07-31T16:28:00.004+08:00

This Conversation Is Over

I woke up feeling good, someone made me angry by one stupid sms, but after that it was okay.
I am really starting to dislike that fat guy who sits infront at chinese ALOT. One day i will sock him in the stomach.
During history i got really mad again only cause Yok sat with Rbc instead of me. Too angry to even participate in the stupid game the class played. So i sat alone at the back of the class, on the floor, with my iPod. Felt nice actually, haha.

But after maths i was okay with Yok again. And she's the sweetest girl you can ever meet. During break i didnt have enough money for a Crunchie i asked everyone to borrow but her. Then she asked me, "Why didn't you ask me?" So i kept quiet. Then she just passed me her big wallet for me to get myself a Crunchie. Really, she rocks :D
Bio was ok.. and when i sit on a normal chair, and Maxine sits on the stool in Bio class, i'm almost her height! hahahaha! :P

Ok time to apply some medicine stuff on my knee injury. I hope this doesnt become a scar. It's going to ruin everything, lol.

You don't know it just yet, but you totally suck balls.
xx

2008-07-30T20:26:00.002+08:00

today rockedddd hard.
execpt i tripped and fell on the carpark floor while helping Mariel get a carebear in the bookshop.
so now we have 3 carebears - caramel, lolipop and cotton candy xD
well my right knee is badly scraped, and i mean BADLY.
left knee is badly scratched. alot of scratches.
and i kinda scraped my right index finger it was bleeding so now i have to grip the pen funny or i cant write . haha .
ermm i dont know what else to write. zzzzz.
i love school much more now. i'm getting along with so much more people. even some of the people i used to dislike lasttime. hahaha.

2008-07-29T16:31:00.003+08:00

today was nice :D
maxine and i bought care bears at school! they're SOOOO cute :D

my two most fave things currently :p Hehe.

Mine is the orange and maxine's is the blue :D

good mood now! going fr tuition. not going to live a useless day. hahah :D

argh. what up private blogs! what do you guys have to hide?

2008-07-28T20:28:00.003+08:00

since i am bored, i shall post.

okay..
i have failed myself again by slacking today. so today, i actually did nothing. zero. zilch.
i lived another meaningless day. when will the time come, when before we go to sleep at night, we know that today we haved done something meaningful or courageous? when will i go to sleep peacefully knowing that today, i have learnt something useful, helped someone in need, done something i have never dared to do, achieved something good?

sometimes i pause and think, if i go on with life like this, what will become of me? I dont want to live a life consisting of Juicy Couture, Louis Vuitton, Prada, Chanel, handphones, computers, wallets, bags, and the list can go on forever. Living a life like that is not a life. When will humans be able to say that even if you throw out all the meaningless stuffs mentioned above, i will still be happy WITH or WITHOUT those objects?

there's one word i hate to think of/about.
FUTURE.
it just scares me to think of what will happen to me next time.

Typical of me. I wanna succeed, but i don't work.
i'm such a joke.

2008-07-24T16:18:00.002+08:00

hey ladies.
malaysia rocks. i can live here for the rest of my life, haha.
so while i'm sitting here on the boss' (aka my dad) chair/desk enjoying J.Co donuts you guys are schooling ): sad. Well i'll be back on saturday for those who want to know.
i just bought a new Juicy Couture wallet!! isnt it the coolest? but ex ya RM322 ):
hmm.. nothing else to say? oh yes Cherie cant sleep without me! haha see she loves me. i think she told me that on sunday if i'm not wrong. LOLLERS.
gotta go bye :DD

2008-07-18T20:09:00.003+08:00

But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you

see you in about 9 days love
xx

So baby don't feel my pain, just smile back.

2008-07-17T14:23:00.000+08:00

Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?

Today was the most happy day in the whole week.
We had Back To Your Future youth conference.
Me and Danielle ponned the whole thing.
Did nothing at all in school.
So must have nothing to post also right , haha .

So baby don't feel my pain, just smile back.
xx

2008-07-16T15:49:00.000+08:00

Today i managed to wake up on time! But i ended up looking as if i've been up all night. hahahha.like some old hag ):
anyway, reached school kinda earlier than usual..
History:
Preseted Marie Antoinette project. Mrs Phua said my timeline was good. and she said our info was excellent! :DD
and i hate the Peer Grading System. if you grade ur good fren badly, that will suck. But still, if they didnt do any work, they deserve it . lol.
English.
i officially hate this lesson. Annoyed Mariel throughout cause i had nothing to do.
PE:
Stupid year 1s had Back To The Future talk which we're having tmr so no PE in hall!
and badminton's for PE btw.
AND WE HAD TO DO OUR ASSESMENT IN THE TENNIS COURT.
Is there any other stupid-er place? So fking windy.
i got a 5. whatever.
Biology.
Not a very good start for a first lesson haha.
Nicola was playing songs with my phone and it wasnt on silent and i forgot to switch it back so when i was in bio it rang and i embarrassed myself in class. lol.

what was hanging from the ceiling in bio lol.
Our Bio tcher Mr Strahan (pronounced Mr Strawn) is quiet nice.
Thank god he didnt do intro.. hahha.

Broken man

2008-07-16T02:36:00.001+08:00

porca miseria! (bloody hell in italian)
-see i learned some italian already. haha joking i knew that ages ago-
it's 2.40am and im still awake.
Consequence, late for schl tmr.
OH WELL.

why am i wasting a post in this.
hahahhahaa.

2008-07-15T18:22:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THIS PENCIL CASE.
ISNT THE CUTEST THING IN THE WORLD! :D

something cute during chinese class. ( maxine's phone)

I've been very easily irritated nowadays. so sorry to maxine, yok or to anyone i've irritated!
hahaha.

I NEED TO WORK HARD IN MY CHINESE. OR IM REALLY DEAD MEAT ): REALLY.

2008-07-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

ok, what i'm about to show you shows how much i suck in italian. im half italian but i dont know how to speak ):
me and my cousin's MSN conver:

Me: dungeon says:
haha hello

Cousin: SINGAPORE...SiNgApOrE...e sl singaporeXD says:
hi=)=)
SINGAPORE...SiNgApOrE...e sl singaporeXD says:
dopo stiriamo i capelli?

dungeon says:
meaning? haha
dungeon says:
stiriamo is?

stupid right. i feel so sucky haha.
gahh. i need to learn to spelak fluent italian ):
today, school was fine. i was abit moody fr no reason.
yok was saying my accent so singaporean. myob pleaseszz.

and i love my cousin so much she's teaching me makeup.
and today she helped me with makeup and she ironed my hair for me i love her haha

2008-07-11T16:48:00.000+08:00

ermm casual dress day was kinda fun! i loved the shirt yok wore ! :D
okay today nothing much happened got back my chem modular and its 21/60 .
some marks to prove that im dumb and lazy . ermm im starting to hate english and mrs tan too. shes annoying i cant stand her. todays last period was RS and maxine mariel yok and i came about 15mins late cause we din hear the bell. but who cares cuz half the class comes more than 20 mins late anyway.
did nothin in rs and mr quek released those who came early first but i ran outa class when he wasnt looking. haha.
erm so yea went home and here i am. hopefully yok finds her 1000 bucks that some arsehole stole from her room. she lives in oldham hall you see.

*the tagboard's back.. for whoever cares. haha, getting sarcastic.

another quiz

2008-07-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

as usual, heres another really boring post.

tmr is casual dress day and i dont know what to wear. mom promised to help but she isnt.
and yidong asked me if guys can wear hairband.. (cross-dressing isnt allowed)
i twisted my ankle today because an idiot like me doesnt even know how to fall down properly and has to fall on the side of her ankle.
ahh modular test tmr so gonna fail. i'll work hard for biology. try my best to.
and im gona go to school damn casual tomorrow sucks to people who go all done up.

well, time do to some (last minute) revision

nite

quiz

2008-07-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

1. What do you wish to have right now?
-everything i think of having

2. What would you do if it can't come true?
-it will come true.

3. What is infront of you?
-laptop

4What is the weather now?
night.

5. Missing anyone right now?
-Yes.

6. Ever regretted anything?
yes
7. What do you do every morning?
- get rdy for school

8. Do you want to rewind anything?
-yes and no

9. Looking forward to?
- october

10. Do you like your handphone number?
-ya
11. Currently listening to?
-my typing

12. What were you doing an hour ago?
-laptop

13. Feeling at the moment?
-tired

14. What did you do yesterday at this time?
-sleep

15. What time do you usually sleep?
12+.

16. Who is your childhood friend?
nicholas. miss him alot.

17. Previously talked to in msn?
Lek.

18. Who haven't you seen in awhile?
PHULWIN AND CHERIE !!!

19. What do you miss doing?
doing whatever i do with phulwin.

20. The last person you saw who logged in msn?
someone

21. Ever smoked?
nope

22. Ever stole?
yes

24. Regretted doing any of them?
ya

25. Which one?
steal

22Who was the last person who messaged you?
Cherie

27. What does it say?
-Betch i went to eat dinner . ps jus nw drop my pone den call auto end . i off lappie le . studyin fr tmr geog test , anytin still can msg me .

28. Name a ex that you wish you're still with him now.
phulwin

29. When were you born?
230594

Where?
KK.

31. Anyone you know has the same birthday as you?
Filin.

32. Ever seen anyone who looks like you?
err no

33. Ever went clubbing?
no.

34. Do you want to change your name?
ermm maybe ?

35. Ever done something when you told yourself not to?
think so

36. Which country do you want to go over the years?
the world

37. Do you believe in God?
sometimes yes sometimes no

38. Ever been to a church?
ya

39. Rate your life.
currently 8/10?

40. What will you do if you are the only human on earth?
i rather be dead with the rest that are

GOODNIGHT

yay

2008-07-07T18:43:00.001+08:00

yay
australia in about 3months time!
3 months does seem like a long time, but it'll come soon.
hopefully. and i better work hard in that 2 months so i wont waste 2 mnths of my life doin nth.
but i'm sure that if i want to i will work hard :D
hopefully i can go there for good. its going to be sad leaving people here but CHERIEMYBESTFRIENDANDSEXYPARTNERINCRIME will be there too!
isnt that like, the coolest? I'll miss Phulwin so much! meet up before i leave :D
hmm.. these days have been nice. i'm enjoying school more and imma much happier person compared to last time. AND AND AND, i finally got my laptop! nothing much but its alot to me :)
youth day today.. school tomorrow.. maths test tmr (ugh) .. yea thats about all. srry for a really useless post.

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2008-07-05T14:35:00.001+08:00

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2008-06-27T19:11:00.000+08:00

school was fun. im going to be nice to everyone now no matter what happened in the past. and also no matter hw much i hate/hated them.
yok says i need to lighten up. which means relax more i think?
maybe 'am too uptight sometimes.
my blog is hardcore sexy without anything. No tagboard no links (i lost the links) just a template with Helena on it, just the way i like it :)
just drank 3rd cup of ice milo today and i still feel thirsty. and im not hungry.
yok is going to thailand for the weekend i will miss her even though i have only known her for 4 days.
i feel so tired nowadays. bin sleeping aft midnight and at 2am yesterday, watching US Women's Open. some of the girls competing are as young as 14 and i hate them so much for being so lucky to be able to play in that tournament.
well 2nd round is at 3am later hope i can wake up. i will sleep at 9 or 10pm so i can wake up at 2.45am.
I was late for school on tues and wed but not today and i slept at 2am last night but i still woke up. well two more times im late and its early bird again.

and the "&" symbol has been starting to annoy me. people use it too much, you know what i mean. & this & that. annoyness man.

oh well bye.

EDIT.
1.33am.
well another 1 and a half hr to go till the 2nd rnd.
maybe ill sleep for awhile then wake up to watch.
or something. im too scared to go downstairs how? ):
im starving and im the only person in the hse stilll awake. and cherie that bitch went to sleep so i cant call her and crap about nothing as usual.
fucker fucking bored. ah just shoot me

xxxxxx
xxx

1

2008-06-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

okay today school started.
we got 3 new kids in our class. one of them whos nickname is Yok has a hot Prada purse. but the prada clutch purse mom got me is still better so haha.
for english bt gave us a shape poem assignment.
i didnt bother to do so she wanted to be a bitch and start sarcasticly comment on me blank sheet of paper. something about inisible ink and only the wise can see it and something abt my mom and grades. bitch bitch bitch i hate her so much. what the fuck poems are a waste of time anw RIGHT? RIGHT ???
and mdm ong confiscated my phone. but i got it back aft school so dont really matter.
im going to learn guitar in music.
its way beter than composing songs which im totally useless at.

28 days to golf camp ):